I am 6 days overdue now and all I can do is wait. You'd think by the third time you would be able to recognize all the signs but I have been convinced that the baby is coming too many times over the past few weeks. In a way I am glad this is my third full-term pregnancy because if it was my first I would have been in an out of the hospital numerous times. I'm just waiting for that first BIG contraction now. My thoughts also turn to worries as I fear the possibility of something happening to the baby, but then I trust in God. This has been a daily, no, a moment by moment test of my faith and ability to wait on God and his timing.
One thing this situation is teaching me about life is by living in a day-to-day state of planning. In James 4:13-15 says, "Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.' Why, you don't even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.'" I like to make plans, the one-year, five-year, ten-year whatever it may be. It helps me feel focused like I will accomplish something in life. Right now, it is frustrating because every plan I make is based on 'if the baby is here' or 'if I haven't had the baby yet'. I am not in control, which is a frustrating but healthy stretch. It is a reminder that even when I think I am in control I am not and that I need to keep God and his will for me in mind when making 'my' plans.